Here I am again, drowning in agony of self-pity, it could be because I lack sugar in my body or it could be that the sadness caught up to me. Often times I put on a brave face and a huge smile to cover the sadness tearing my heart apart, but why can’t I do it now? Could it be because my face muscles got tired of smile when I really want to cry?
Could it be that every memory from my past got me when I learned that a friend of mine is in a slightly similar situation?
So many questions that I could not put into words, yet the answer points only to one direction, and it is the root of my sadness. See only a few people are aware of my situation and they help me forget sometimes but the problem is still lurking around, waiting for the perfect timing to strike back. I tried everything to remove the problem from my life but every time I am close to being over them, something comes up where the circumstance leaves me no choice but to face them again.
Every problem has a solution right? So where the hell is the solution when I badly need it? Actually, I have an idea on how I can be at peace, migration. If only my family can migrate to another country, I wouldn’t have to put up with this stupid problem anymore. I know I’m only running from the problem but there is no sense in facing it when I’m dealing with unreasonable people. They don’t understand me and they never will. Not in this lifetime or any other lifetime. That is just the way they are, close-minded and over confident in themselves and no one can dare speak against them. They are a bunch of crabs that will pull you out of your success because they are merely jealous.
My husband and I are going way up, they coerced us to sell our van and entrust them the money because according to them, they can get a car for a very low down payment. Over trusting and foolish, we believed them because they are family after all. After a few months, a car cannot be seen and neither is our money. We asked for the money back and we received a check. Again, we trusted and forgot to verify if the check was cleared by the bank and the money is our again. A few days passed, we tried to get the money back because the check bounced. Twice they “re-scheduled” our meeting because they have a “client” to attend to. On the third time, we went to their house and they are the ones who have the nerve to get angry. Imagine, they are the ones who owe us a big amount and yet they are the ones who have their head up high. And according to their “family” my husband and I are at fault because we made them angry so in turn they will not give the money back. The nerve of these people!
It happened two years ago, I am trying hard not to fast forward them to their karma because it is forbidden. We lost our 6-figured money and one side of our family.
A question to anyone who is reading this…
Can you consider someone a family if they do something unlawful and manipulate you so that they could get what they want even at your expense?
For me a person like that could not be considered a family, so now they disowned me and I don’t really care. I don’t want anything to do with people like them anyway. They could keep the money, after all karma will get them big time. And when that happens, I will be as far away as possible that they cannot do something to lessen their loads. People may say that I should make things right but I don’t want to risk igniting another war.
So go ahead judge me as ‘suwail’
Do I care?
NO.
